Virtual Coffee

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If we were having coffee today, I’d welcome you into my messy house and probably tell you to excuse the dust and cat hair.  I’d tell you how grateful I am that the sun is shining today after too many rainy and gray days.

If we were having coffee today, I’d tell you I’m tired.  Tired of doctors and specialists and procedures.  And there’s more yet to come.  Tired of neck pain.  Tired of coughing.  Tired of not getting any answers.

If we were having coffee today, I’d probably tell you that my youngest son is starting a new job Monday and he is very happy and excited as he will be doing more of what he wants to do and feels this job will be a much better fit for him (and one in which he feels he will be using his engineering degree more than he was at his last position).  I’m so happy for him. I’d probably ask for prayers for him as he starts this new job and as he moves today because as you know, moving can be so stressful.

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If we were having coffee today, I’d ask you if you’ve read any good books lately.  I’d tell you that I’m still reading through Marianne Williamson’s book, A Course In Weight Loss: 21 Spiritual Lessons For Surrendering Your Weight Forever.  I’ve also started reading Grace for the Good Girl: letting go of the try-hard life by Emily Freeman and A Dog’s Purpose by W. Bruce Cameron.  I’d tell you I drive my own self crazy by having too many books going at the same time but that’s just how I am and I’ve always done it this way.

If we were having coffee I’d tell you that I’m struggling— struggling spiritually, emotionally, and physically.  I’d tell you that I’ve started visiting churches and I’m way out of my comfort zone doing this.  It’s very difficult for this introvert. I’ve attended the same church for 50+ years (since I was a child).  I’d tell you there’s grief in trying to make a decision about leaving a church one has attended for that long— grief like I never would have imagined.  So walking into other denominations that are well, so different than what I’m accustomed to is just hard. I’d tell you that I’ve grown up with and dearly love wooden pews and altars, church organs and traditional church hymns and I love liturgy and ritual and partaking in Holy Communion every week. So to walk into a building and see a live band with drums and electric guitars and singers up on a stage with all kinds of Broadway-type lighting and flashing colors, chairs instead of pews, and live-stream cameras in the back makes me feel like I’m fixing to watch a Broadway production instead of attending a church service.  It feels irreverent to me.  I don’t mean to offend anyone by saying that…. I’m just being honest here as it’s all so new and strange to me.

If we were having coffee today, I’d tell you that I’ve been doing good great on sticking to my regimen of healthier eating—eating more fruits, veggies and whole grains and knocking out sweets and snacking, drinking lots more water, and cutting way down on portion sizes.  I’m walking/exercising almost every day.  I’d also have to tell you that the weight is not coming off like I think it should and I’m frustrated.  And I’d be honest in telling you that sometimes I wonder why I bother and I feel like just going out and getting a big ole Shoney’s Hot Fudge Cake and stuffing it in my face.  But I’d gain 5 lbs. from doing that so I don’t.

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If we were having coffee today I’d tell you it absolutely made my day recently to meet in person my new favorite author, Robert J. Morgan.  I purchased a copy of his new book, Reclaiming the Lost Art of Biblical Meditation: Find True Peace in Jesus, and he signed it for me.  He was every bit as nice as I knew he would be.  I’d share with you that I’m still slowly reading his book 100 Bible Verses Everyone  Should Know by Heart  but I’m not doing too good in the memorization part and it’s very slow going for me.  I’d tell you that I’ve started a study of The Gospel of John and I pray for wisdom, knowledge and understanding every single night when I sit down to study John’s Gospel.

If we were having coffee today, I’d invite you outside to look at what’s left of my blooming irises, peonies and Clematis.  I’d more than likely show you my mother’s old Fiddler on the Roof bird house (that’s what I call it- it has a story with it) and how excited I am that new bird tenants have moved into it and are raising a family.  I’ve only had one other bird family move into it and lay eggs but a big ole chicken snake got both of them and their eggs.  Hopefully, this little family will make it.

I guess that’s all for now as I really must get back to housecleaning.  Thanks for having virtual coffee with me and I hope the rest of your weekend is great!  Happy Mother’s Day!

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Gail ♥

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About Gail

I am a wife, mother, sister, aunt, friend, veterinarian, and wanna be writer. I love nature and animals of all kinds, music, cooking, and spending time with my family.
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15 Responses to Virtual Coffee

  1. Relax... says:

    You’re so gracious. If we were having coffee, I think I’d find you so delightful, you’d have to push me out of your house for some peace and quiet. 🙂 I will remember all your intentions in prayer tomorrow. All your hopes and dreams, too. ❤

  2. enitsirk24 says:

    I can only drink decaf and I love non-dairy French Vanilla creamer. I would love to have coffee with you.

    I would encourage you to remain on the exercise and dietary change since the weight gain did not happen overnight, so the shedding of pounds will not either. Be patient.

    I would pray with you for your son, but remind you that you did a great job raising him, so there are to be no worries about his well being. He will be fine.

    I am not a big reader, since I am a slow reader and I have so many other things goong on in my life at the moment. I am a collector of books for when I have time to read.

    • Gail says:

      I love the non-dairy French Vanilla Creamer too. I’m definitely sticking with the dietary changes and exercise and know it didn’t get there overnight I totally understand that slow weight loss is best and that it’s not safe to lose weight rapidly (believe me I don’t even need to worry about that happening- Ha!). But my thoughts have changed a little on weight loss and metabolism. I always believed weight loss would happen if you consumed less calories than you burned off but no longer believe that. I’ve found the older I get, my body just really wants to hang on to the fat. I would think that after 3-4 weeks of making some drastic changes, exercising every day and cutting WAY back and I mean WAY back that I might have lost a little more than 1 lb?? It’s REALLY frustrating to me. I just have to keep plugging away though and deal with the frustrations SOMEHOW.

      What kind of books do you enjoy reading when you have the time to read?

      Thanks for commenting!

  3. becketar says:

    Wow! Great post Gail. Thanks for being transparent.

  4. Oh, I would love to have coffee with you and here all these. And talking about the church, I grew up in an Anglican Church, gave my life to Christ in a Baptist Church but ended up in a “Broadway production” due to marriage. Do I miss my hymns and the pews? I definitely do. But, God is still in the broadway and I’ve learnt to embrace them. I know how it feels, it took me a while to adjust but I did adjust, and I drew closer, I realised they were just ordinary men and women seeking after God. Lovely post. Loved it.

    • Gail says:

      Thank you! I grew up in an Episcopal church so it’s just so different and something I will need to just adapt to (I keep hearing that most churches are going to the “Broadway production style” to attract the youth out there). In a way, that made me sad. After I wrote this post, I was watching a sermon and the pastor said something that stuck with me. He said that even though “style” might bother us at some churches, it shouldn’t. He said what we should be concerned with is not “style” but if God is truly glorified and worshipped in the church. It made sense. Thanks for commenting.

  5. misifusa says:

    Gail, I wish we could enjoy a virtual cup of coffee because I love what you wrote. I hope you find the church for you and that you find peace within your heart about the choice. Happy belated Mother’s Day to you!

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